Marriage

I'm getting married
In a matter of days
But I feel just numb

There's nothing I sense
I get hints from others'
Reaction to the news

Most say she's pretty
And I should exercise
Get in shape and shop

But I feel so detached
As if it's all happening
Around me, not within

There's but genuine liking
For the one I'm betrothed
Sadly that's as far it goes

But then isn't bonding
Like a burning flame
Ours is a mild candle

I'd known fires before
But so uncontrollable
Like a wild forest fire

Within brief moments
So much got burnt out
That nothing remained

But it has cleared
The ground fully
To sow saplings

New resilient species
Which will hopefully
Blossom again soon

My mistake

Biggest mistake I made
Was not understanding
That the most precious
Of everything is grace

Something which can
Never be demanded
Never be confiscated
Sold nor ever stolen

It can only be given
When one is ready
To face the ultimate
Truth that all is one

Finding

I never found myself
And I could't find you
It's all so intertwined

Because there never
Was any difference
We were just same

The unsteady wind
From the far north
Dissipating slowly

We were destined
To never ever meet
But flow same way

On cliffs and valleys
Searching each other
Upon an eternal quest

Birthday wish

It's your birthday tomorrow
And I don't know what to do
But it's been a year since we
Actually spoke to each other

And now my hands are tied
I can no longer post a letter
Nor wrap gift or call phone
Neither fit words together

But the date will be there etched
For the insanity of all my plans
Of buying an absurd flight ticket
Or thinking to paint with blood

But this time I feel I shouldn't
Try to disturb your harmony
Instead I'll send a gentle wish
In a dream in my deep sleep

It'll travel thousand miles
With the traveling breeze
Touch the flower in vase
On thy bright window sill

The flower will sense feeling
And the little music carried
Blossom a little bit more
And greet you tomorrow

Tree of life

Strange are the ways of love
Today it is all encompassing
Tomorrow its all but dream

What seemed ever so real
Turned in to feeble illusion
Anyone can see it through

Through the inner turmoil
Ground of the heart tilled
A few seeds of hope sown

After years of dissipation
Bleak rain and dark clouds
A few saplings have grown

Now at dawn the dew shines
On tiny green leaves sprout
Someday they'll grow a tree

Provide fruit and give shelter
Through the loneliness when
One's youth 'n time runs out

Crayons

The box of crayons
At the table corner
Kept staring at me
Under a coat of dust

Unused for so long
Yet safely displayed
For an inspired day
To scale up dreams

Colors black and red
Overused, barely stay
The blues and greens
Can fill up the palette

My old box of crayons
I had saved for today
A bright autumn day
To scale dreams again

The last night

What if it's the last night?
Last dream before I wake
Final mist to cover dawn
But we never said goodbye

It's ok, dreams will haunt
Creaking doors announce
The wind not you're back
And thus we'll never part

Yes it's the very last night
Last dream before awake
Last fog to mask the dawn
We'll meet other side next