Letting go

Yes it is hard to let go
Joyful moments vanish
Painful memories keep
Always knocking door

It's hard to acknowledge
With me you're unhappy
Your joy is someone else
My darkness is deserved

When the sticky black tar
Of hate coats up my heart
In vain I try to remember
The time we had first met

Excitement of first meeting
How I had gazed and stared
Clumsily I fumbled around
Became joke but didn't care

How days passed in an instant
Those nights were of longing
Now a day is long hard work
Night I try erase you from me