Marriage card

I received your marriage card yesterday
Didn't dare open it, wonder what's inside
It's better a mystery, much better hidden

But I do accept it, it's the nail upon coffin
Of my tragic comical romance, yet again!
I'll keep it as reminder by my side always

I received your marriage card yesterday
I won't ever open it, wonder what's inside
It's better a reminder for me to strengthen

Other side

I found a glimpse of the other side
A parallel universe so beyond me
Another universe, different reality

Splashes of colour, light n sounds
Nothing like world where we live
Sensations pulsating and sublime

Radiant light sparkles all beings
Where movement meets silence
And syncs up to utter harmony

I found a glimpse of the other side
In a dream, I dreamt deep within
Another universe so far from me

Lies

I'm such a liar you know
No matter how much I try
To write about lofty things
All my poems are on love

But the love I have known
Is far from rosy fairytale
It's rather been a disaster
And I've hardly recovered

One I loved didn't look back
Nor did I mean much to her
All my poetry is just excuse
To cover up a broken heart

But this poetry is all mine
Whom can I go on to lie to
But myself, digging deeper
To hide up all my ugly scars

No wonder the searching
And all the hallucinations
It's just an elaborate scam
To cover what I really am

Voices

I don't think my voice was heard
Beyond these thick airtight walls

I thus learned the music of silence
Everything now resonates inside

The bits of coloured paper dreams
Now forms kaleidoscope of colours

Disparate noises from everywhere
Join to form the greatest symphony

Close

Yes I'm coming close
To an end to all ends
Final cliff after which
There is nothing else

A point of no return
As all of me unravels
Broken basic elements
To return all my debts

Yes I'm just so close
To final destination
As I bid thy farewell
Shadows slowly fade

True songs

Let the wind sing mellow songs
No words can catch its rhythm
Let the water gush and dance
No words can match its steps

With words I can only profess
The clouds of thoughts passing
Which can never match grace
Or depth of the natural world

So let the wind sing its tunes
Let me just sit still and listen
Let the water gush and dance
Let thy soul feel divine within

I am

I'm not who you think you know
I'm not what you believe you see
I'm also not what I desire to be
I'm not what I'd rather portray

The truth is simply just that I
Am what I am; I am, yes I am

Reflection

I couldn't see myself anymore
Even inner feelings were lost
So I tried to find a reflection
On the trusted looking glass

But the mirror was so dusty
Nothing really came across
I was a featureless contour
Might as well been a stone

I tried to then find myself
On a filled up wine glass
But the drink was tinted
So convoluted the glass

I tried to see a reflection
Upon my laptop monitor
But there the steady flow
Of stormy media blocked

Tired, disaffected and lost
I gave up, started to doze
And upon my closed eyes
A reflection arrived mine

To whom it may concern

To whom it may concern
May I say I'm totally fine
I'm actually feeling good

After being lost in a maze
Now I found myself a path
I'm not taking wrong turns

Previously I hit many walls
Trampled between thorns
But now there's a highway

I hitched up a ride walking
The driver took sympathy
And will drop me by along

I look back on my journey
And I see it was just a plan
By divine to unburden me

What I thought I had lost
Was what never belonged 
Remaining is mine forever

Your smile

Life was such a drag
I was crawling along
Through work n play

One day I discovered
Your beautiful smile
Jewel amidst poverty

At first I got enchanted
But soon I knew better
The jewel is not mine

Its been entrusted to me
To show me some light
Will remain till I care

I no longer feel the cold
Through the torn rags
Nor does hunger bite

As long as the jewel
Is along, yet hidden
Enriching me inside

Marriage

I'm getting married
In a matter of days
But I feel just numb

There's nothing I sense
I get hints from others'
Reaction to the news

Most say she's pretty
And I should exercise
Get in shape and shop

But I feel so detached
As if it's all happening
Around me, not within

There's but genuine liking
For the one I'm betrothed
Sadly that's as far it goes

But then isn't bonding
Like a burning flame
Ours is a mild candle

I'd known fires before
But so uncontrollable
Like a wild forest fire

Within brief moments
So much got burnt out
That nothing remained

But it has cleared
The ground fully
To sow saplings

New resilient species
Which will hopefully
Blossom again soon

My mistake

Biggest mistake I made
Was not understanding
That the most precious
Of everything is grace

Something which can
Never be demanded
Never be confiscated
Sold nor ever stolen

It can only be given
When one is ready
To face the ultimate
Truth that all is one

Finding

I never found myself
And I could't find you
It's all so intertwined

Because there never
Was any difference
We were just same

The unsteady wind
From the far north
Dissipating slowly

We were destined
To never ever meet
But flow same way

On cliffs and valleys
Searching each other
Upon an eternal quest

Birthday wish

It's your birthday tomorrow
And I don't know what to do
But it's been a year since we
Actually spoke to each other

And now my hands are tied
I can no longer post a letter
Nor wrap gift or call phone
Neither fit words together

But the date will be there etched
For the insanity of all my plans
Of buying an absurd flight ticket
Or thinking to paint with blood

But this time I feel I shouldn't
Try to disturb your harmony
Instead I'll send a gentle wish
In a dream in my deep sleep

It'll travel thousand miles
With the traveling breeze
Touch the flower in vase
On thy bright window sill

The flower will sense feeling
And the little music carried
Blossom a little bit more
And greet you tomorrow

Tree of life

Strange are the ways of love
Today it is all encompassing
Tomorrow its all but dream

What seemed ever so real
Turned in to feeble illusion
Anyone can see it through

Through the inner turmoil
Ground of the heart tilled
A few seeds of hope sown

After years of dissipation
Bleak rain and dark clouds
A few saplings have grown

Now at dawn the dew shines
On tiny green leaves sprout
Someday they'll grow a tree

Provide fruit and give shelter
Through the loneliness when
One's youth 'n time runs out